May Days

Highlights from this month!

  • Saw The Avengers in theaters
  • Visiting the Dallas Museum of Nature and Science
  • Spent time with my grandmother from New York who was visiting was visiting for New York State
  • Cancelled my gym membership – yoga and walks are now my form of exercise
  • Quit my job to take some time off for rest and healing
  • Crafting! Crafting! Crafting!
  • Mother’s Day at the Texas Ranger’s game
  • Got an internship with a wedding floral design company!
  • Abby’s Wedding
  • Hanging out with a few of my best friends that I hadn’t seen in ages
  • Dinner with my mom, Aunt Terri, and cousin Becca (who I don’t see very often)
  • Practiced yoga 12 days in a row (and still counting!)
  • Got Texas Ranger’s pitcher Robbie Ross’s autograph
  • Books Read: The Darlings, Mockingjay, Catching Fire, What We Keep, The Art of Mending, Open House, Never Change, The Sisters, The Lifeboat, & Dream When You’re Feeling Blue
  • Movies Watched: The Avengers (in theaters), Secretariat, Definitely Maybe, & The Conspirator

So my May wasn’t too super exciting… I did get to meet up with friends and family that I hadn’t seen in a long time which I enjoyed. I have my new internship to look forward to in  the following months. Working in the wedding industry has always been one of my “dream jobs” and I’m so fortunate to have this opportunity! It’s 3 months unpaid, but if things go well I’ll be eligible for hire. I’m planning on meeting up with more friends and hoping to try new things! Time to mix up my routine and really celebrate life!

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Books, Books, Book!

It’s bookworm Wednesday time!

This was one of the best books I’ve read in a long time! I wasn’t sure if I’d like it at first, but after a few chapters it was so hard to put down! It follows the lineage of sisters. I enjoyed how you follow them throughout their life and then see how their pasts intertwine with their own daughters and granddaughters. I’m also glad that they had a family tree listed in the beginning of the book because it was easy to who was who confused!

Whatever we carry inside us shapes everything we touch.

- The Sisters by Nancy Jensen

I finished this book yesterday. It was a little disappointing. Not a “bad book” at all, but it was not what I was expecting. It seemed a bit repetitive at times, but overall it is a good story of survival and morals.

But hope had always seemed to me like a weak emotion, a kind of pleading passivity or entrenched denial.

- The Lifeboat by Charlotte Rogan

Another book by Elizabeth Berg that I loved. This one seemed different from the previous ones of hers that I have read. I’m not sure why. Maybe because I am a bit biased based on the fact that WWII (which is when the story is set) is one of my favorite  eras. The book was predictable at times but my interest was kept by little “twists.” It was a tough one to put down and I was sad when I closed it at the end. I wanted more!

All that stuff is not important,” Louise said. “I think the most important thing about loving someone is not even the wat you feel about them, but the way he makes you feel about yourself…”

- Dream When You’re Feeling Blue by Elizabeth Berg

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Read any good books lately?!

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Entertain Me, Please

I’ve felt so weird the past few days. I guess my “lame” weekend kinda started it off. I’ve been working really hard not to throw “pity parties” for myself. Sleep hasn’t been getting much better, but I am usually able to nap so that can help. For the most I’ve been keeping myself occupied with yoga, reading, crocheting, and craft projects. Yesterday and today crocheting could barely hold my interest. Usually it’s my “go to” activity to help calm my mind – it helps me to ”space out.” Restless, restless. It was nice escaping to the library for a few afternoons last week. I haven’t made it their this week though. It’s already pretty hot outside for me and I hate getting in of a hot oven… I mean my car. I suppose I need to add a bit more variety to the mix. I have been planning meals and cooking for my family (Turkey Maid Rites and Chicken Fajitas) which also gives me something to do/plan.

I don’t know, I just have this strange feeling that I can’t put into words. My days are beginning to blur together. The morning seems so long ago, like it was a whole different day. I’m not losing my mind, I swear, just need to continue to rest and catch up on my sleep!

Entertainment

   


Simple Saturday

If you’ve been following my blog then you know that living a more “simple life” has been one of my goals. I read the book One Thousand Gifts, which inspired me to reflect upon the simpler gifts in life.  Since finishing the book over a month ago, I’ve been writing down at least 3-5 encounters that  brought me joy before I go to bed each night. I want to begin posting some of the “highlights” from my week on Saturday. I’m thinking that it will help me refocus on what’s really important in life and remind me to really focus on living in the present.

  • The lines left behind on floors after vacuuming
  • Books that you can’t put down
  • Morning yoga
  • Finding a new “escape” – my local library
  • Kitties when they chase their tails
  • Eating meals outside in the sunshine
  • Recharging naps
  • Soap bubbles in the shape of a heart on my shower mat
  • Watching kites fly in the wind
  • Ripples made on a calm lake
  • Our Magnolia tree full of blossoms
  • Sunsets
  • Baby ducks
  • Create-Your-Own Sundaes! (Mc Donald’s Ice cream cup, Kashi Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookie, & a Scoop of Peanut Butter)

 What “little things” have brought you joy recently?

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It’s Gonna Be a Long, Hot Summer…

Well, this is just perfect timing. Our A/C has decided that it doesn’t want to work anymore… It’s gonna be in the low 90s today, which makes it even hotter in the house. I didn’t get enough sleep last night and woke up feeling awful (headache & nauseous) today. I just want to lay around at home where things are familiar and I can keep my routine – this helps some when I don’t feel well. The repair man won’t be to the house until Sunday. I’ll probably have to stay at my Aunt’s, but my uncle and cousin are going to be home and I don’t feel like being “presentable” and making conversation.

Originally I had planned to go to a museum with that “guy friend” I have been hanging out with. But 1) I don’t feel good, 2) I’m afraid that he likes me, likes me and I really don’t feel that way about him so it’s awkward. So I told him I’ve been sick all day which isn’t exactly a lie… Ugh, what a great way to start the weekend…

One a happier note, here are a few projects that I’ve been working on this week:

 

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I though that I’d share a quote from a book I just finished reading:

How would you define happiness? What is it? Is it real? And if it is, what brings it to you? Is it something in you or outside of you? Does anyone have it all the time, or are there just moments of happiness for anyone? Is contentment the same as happiness?

What is “happiness” to you?


Grounded

I am going through a difficult time right now. It’s one of those “low phases” before things get better. I have really been trying to focus on God and prayer to help me through my days, but He seems so far away. I’m not giving up, though. I’m copying a few verses that were used in the book Made to Crave. I’m trying to cling on to for strength that can hopefully also help you or someone you know who needs encouragement.

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world – the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has done  - comes not from the Father but from the world. – 1 John 2:15-16

Give ear to my worlds, O LORD, consider my sighing. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. – Psalm 5:1-3

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. – Isaiah 43:18-19

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms. – Ephesians 1:17-20

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of sinful nature. – Galatians 5:16

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. – Galatians 5:22-23

But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus, All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you should think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only to let us live up to what we have already attained. – Philippians 3:13-16

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away; yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. Ephesians 2:10

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. – Psalm 73:26

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. – James 1:2-4

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. – Romans 8:26

And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. – Romans 5:5

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I Say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” – Lamentations 3:22-24

Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. – Ephesians 4:8

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. – Ecclesiastes 3:11

So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear, But when you are tempted, he will provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. Therefore, my dear friends, flee from idolatry. – 1 Corinthians 12-14

Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God. – 2 Corinthians 7:1

“Everything is permissible for me” – but not everything is beneficial… I will not be mastered by anything. – 1 Corinthians 6:12

 

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April Analysis

  • April 3 – Severe storms and tornadoes in our area. There was major damage done to town only miles from our home. We are so blessed that the tornadoes went around us.
  • April 7 – First Ranger’s game of the Season with my brother and one of my “guy friends” from high school. I also got to see one of my best friends from college (that I hadn’t seen since we graduated December 2010) that also happened to be at the game!
  • April 11 – My aunt and cousin flew in from Iowa. My parents and I took them to the Ranger’s game that evening.
  • April 14 – My second cousin got married in Houston.
  • Started seeing a new Christian counselor.
  • April 20 – Went to “Late Night” at the Dallas Museum of Art and saw Paula McClain, author of The Paris Wife, speak. I really enjoyed it – I loved that book!
  • April 28 – Met my brother’s new girlfriend, Taylor. Had lunch at local restaurant with the family. My “intuitive side” thinks that they aren’t a good match, but they aren’t serious.
  • April 29 – Lunch with one of my friends I hadn’t seen in over a year. We had a “falling out” but I decided to give our friendship another try. Things were a tad awkward at first. We didn’t really talk about “why” I stopped speaking with her, but things are OK now.
  • April 29 – My grandmother is visiting from New York (to help my aunt pack/organize for her upcoming  move) and my parents and I took her to the Denton Arts & Jazz Festival that afternoon and Panera for dinner on the way home.

Tornado Weather

Baseball – It’s officially Springtime!

Herb Planting

Easter

Seeing family (that I haven’t seen in years) at my second cousin’s wedding

New Crafts

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Craving Joy

It has been so tough for me to find “joy” in things the past few days. Work has been busy which means I don’t get any breaks and am on my feet non-stop. My energy level has been plummeting even with snacks and sleep. I feel like I’m once again at the end of my rope. It’s so difficult to stay motivated when I’m “running on empty.” I’ve been wanting to talk to my boss about cutting back my hours to part-time, either working only mornings or afternoons. I keep chickening out… I tell myself that there is no medical reason why I should feel so fatigued and that I should just suck it up and work, work, work. Because when I do have free time, like today when we had the afternoon off for our corporate meeting, I was so restless and didn’t know what to do with my time. I ended up napping, then going to the gym for a short while but I felt so unproductive. So if I do cut back on my hours how will I fill my time? I know that I need to “rest” but what does “resting” for me entail exactly? I’m still unmotivated to do much of anything – nothing “fun” (reading, art, crafts, hobbies, etc.) sound very appealing. It’s hard to know what the “right” answer is right now.

And of course when I don’t have the “answers” I think and think… I don’t know what I “want to do with my life” and feel so empty. I’d just like some direction. I already know that office/desk jobs, teaching, nursing, and Physical/Occupational therapy are not good career options for me and my personality. So what now? I feel like I’m running out of options – stuck!

I’m trying to replace the emptiness with God, prayer, and looking for the little “joys” in life. I’m reading the book Made to Crave that my counselor recommended. I don’t feel like it’s completely applicable to my situation but I’m gaining some insight from it nonetheless.

“Therefore consider the members of your earthly body as dead to immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and greed, which amounts to idolatry.”

- Colossians 3:5

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Finding Joy

I started reading One Thousand Gifts over the weekend. My cousin recommended it to my aunt and then my aunt bought it for me and it had been sitting on my nightstand for a few weeks. The author takes up a challenge given to her by a friend to write a list of 1,000 things she’s thankful for which helps her to live more fully in the moment. This book is what I “need” right now. Living more in the “present” has been what I’ve been striving for. Reading this book reminds me to focus on and be grateful for the “little” gifts in life that God sends us – Things that we are often too busy to take the time to notice.

Here are a few things that bring me joy that I’ve slowed down enough to enjoy:

First sprouts/buds

 

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March Review

Here’s what my “March” looked like:
  • Weekend trip to visit my brother at OU – Science Museum of Oklahoma (planetarium and “Tornado Alley” IMAX shows)
  • Reconnected by crafting (coasters) with one of my aunts
  • Started seeing a dietitian again – focus on adding more protein for energy
  • Dallas Museum of Art 1920s exhibit with dad – really enjoyed the show!
  • Went to Ennis, TX to check out the bluebonnets
  • Caught up with an old friend over lunch :)
  • Started practicing yoga more (consistently)
  • LOTS of crafting for Spring and Easter
  • Lots of reading… Emily Giffin’s Books

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